I want to creep inside your mind,
Plow through the confines of your being,
I’m tired of being blind,
There’s just so much I could be seeing.
Give me a look into the life you lead,
Take me as far as I can go.
Can’t you see that this is what I need?
There’s something about you that makes me glow.
I feel the need to live,
Find a place where I belong,
I think it’s something you can give,
If not, prove me wrong.
-4/20/11
I saw my shadow, chasing my dreams
Running without me,
Leaving me behind.
It skipped, it pranced
It did a dance
And all the while I stared.
It was free
It ran wild
It was everything I wish I could be.
You’re so far from me
Every step I take moving us further apart.
I try to inch closer
But somehow I’m going the wrong way.
I took a wrong turn
And now the distance mocks me.
I’m being laughed at.
Being belittled.
And there’s no where else to go.
You raced into my mind,
crawled into my head.
Sucked my soul dry,
Left me for dead.
Feeding off my every thought,
Consuming all I’ve ever known,
I realized it’s all you wanted,
The truth chilling me to the bone.
We never could have had anything more,
No giving back the things you took,
I should have seen through your lies,
But now I get to close our book.
We don’t have very long
A few scattered moment here and there
I can’t help wishing
Wanting
Pining for something more
A smirk in the doorway
Leading yourself in
Touches here
Giggles there
A little dance in the candlelight
A picture perfect moment
So comfortable
So real
I want it
I need it
Darling, honey,
My love,
Please don’t go
Please don’t leave
Just stay here tonight
The shadows of thought linger
As the walls, they whipser
They know the threads of an old life
Of secrets told
Of lies forgotten
As our memories fade
Within the walls they remain ingrained
Gossipers of the night
Stealing away all light
Walls talk
Are you listening?
Some things are not
As they seem
Whispers in the
Dark
And other things
That fall
In between
Take a look
At the mess you’ve made
Secrets
Kept
And lies told
What a pretty
Picture to behold
Nothing else remains
Here
It’s funny how
The people you once
Knew
Become the ones
You don’t
And the people you
Always
Wanted to know
You now do
And wish
You didn’t
Feeling weighted down
With no escape
What do you want form me?
What do you want me to be?
Confusion encompasses all
And once again
I’m lost.
I’m tired,
I’m exhausted,
I’m done.
Now let me be
Free.
Drip-drop, drip-drop
The rhythmic pounding of
Rain as it hits the windowsill.
Drip-drop, drip-drop
The pouring out of
Dreams from the jar that stored them.
Drip drop, drip-drop
The falling apart of
All that’s ever known.
Drip-drop, drip-drop
The tears that cascade
Down a face.
Drip-drop, drip-drop
The signs of
A breakdown
A mess made
The pitiful sounds of
Failure.
Drip-drop, drip-drop.
I thought about
The things you said.
I tried not to think too long,
To overanalyze,
To distort.
It didn’t get me far.
My racing thoughts
Antagonized my feeble nerves.
And at once I knew
This was not for me.
You’ve been charnimg,
Playing your part well.
Striking a match
To “forever”,
Forever is long gone.
The autumn leaves crackled underneath our hurried
footsteps as we rushed to find
a secret place to call our own.
The sharp, chill wind bit at
our necks, our cheecks flushing a rosy red -
perhaps due to more than just the cold.
You laughed a breathy laugh
As I tripped trying to catch you
You put out your arm to catch me instead
We ended up catching each other
Our fingers touched
Electricity shot through us
The moment so fast
But I saw it so slow
And this was all ours
No one watching us, telling us what to do
In that moment, feeling so alive
You brought your lips to my ear
Whipsered
“Come get me”
As you began running down that path
Your smile stretching straight across your face
And I knew I would chase after you
Chase you because it made me happy
Chase you because I wanted to make you happy
Chase you until you were mine
Chase you to the end of time.
Hey there, I love you
I feel it deep within
Hey there, I miss you
I think I see you in my dreams
Hey there, I need you
I don’t know why, but I know it’s true
Hey there, I think about you often
You creep into my mind when I’m unaware
Hey there, I found you
I found you when I couldn’t even find myself
Hey there, I know you
I know those secrets you won’t speak
Hey there, I’ll save you
I’ll save you because you saved me
Hey there, I love you
Do you love me too?